The Heart in a Box

I locked it away in a little black box,
And for a while I forgot
What it was like to have it inside,
Begging to come out instead of trying to hide.
I locked it up with chains
And took it somewhere far away.
Dropped it off where no one could see,
So that it would never be free.

I drowned it in the dark ocean,
Left it there to let it mend.
I hoped not to see it again.
Hoping that maybe this was the end
Of the butterflies in my stomach,
And the confusion that makes me sick.

I thought this would be the last time
That over this I would cry.
I thought that if it was lost
Then these feelings would stay gone.
I was fine on my own, without it there.
With it gone, I didn't need to care.

And suddenly with no warning,
After leaving me mourning,
It returns half-full, but still alive,
And there it is before my eyes.
Counting the seconds with every beat,
Once again keeping me from my sleep.
Leaving me with a choice, a question,
Yes or no, such a hard decision.

I'm not supposed to feel.
i don't even know if this is real...
Somewhere there's a truth under these lies
Although it's hard to see under the disguise.
Time is quickly running out,
I'm beyond the point of doubt.
Before this time, I've been left alone.
Since then heartbreak is all I've known.
So tell me what I should do...
Should I give my heart to you?